Two Cold Feet....A Hundred Teary Eyes

Life is full of uncertainties; the worst being its end. What exists today may tomorrow be a thing of the past. Combine that with the human affinity for procrastination - especially when it comes to expressing your love or gratitude for someone - and the results would be nothing less than sheer regret.

One fine morning a beloved someone leaves as per his/her routine and instead of him/her coming back as scheduled, you receive the grim news of his/her demise. Or maybe, in the middle of the night you are woken up from deep slumber just to be told that a dear relative is no more. Alternately, you wait for the dear one at the airport only to realize that their body and soul were on flights to different destinations. Whatever the situation in which the news arrive, the outcome is the same. Suddenly your world comes to a stand-still. The conscious mind gives in to its subconscious  counterpart. Immediately upon taking over, the subconscious mind takes you through cycles of visuals from the past and of the future. Half nostalgic, half hysteric one juggles between responsibilities and emotions.

Directly or indirectly, I have witnessed such unfortunate situations many a times. I have always wondered what must be going through the minds of those at loss, until I lost someone close enough to find the answer. For the not-so-strong hearted, the thoughts are usually revolving around the memories of the gone while for the strong  hearted, the brains are already working on deciding the future course of actions. (They say you can never make up for the losses. True, but then you can’t even sit grieving for the loss because grief only brings more sorrow.) Whether you are the strong hearted or the not so strong hearted, there is one feeling that you just cannot overcome – the feeling of regret.

There is always a moment when those at a loss wonder, hope and pray that the deceased would have stayed on for a little longer. ‘I wish he would stayed until the so-and-so’s function at least’; ‘I wish he would have seen his new house before he went’ - we all have heard such statements being made at funerals. But what remains unsaid, and to my mind what is the most important, is that regret of not having expressed enough to the deceased. The desire to or even the actual actions of expressing one’s love and gratitude towards the deceased is the most painful sight to see. ‘Why did you leave me alone, what will I do with out you, please take me along’ – such statements have always broken me down. I have always pondered over the possibility of the cold lifeless body coming back to life and giving a warm consoling hug to the ones at loss – just for a moment. There would be so much to say…………….the heart would be so much lighter……..for I think its not just loss but sudden loss that makes the process so much more painful.

||सौ ख़त लिखे हैं तुम्हे,

पर लिफाफे पे लिखने को पता नहीं;

हर पल धुन्धती हैं नज़रें तुम्हें,

पर तुम्हारे तो साए भी नहीं दीखते कहीं;

तुम्हारी यादों में भीग जाती हैं पलकें,

पर इन आसुओंको रोकने वाला ही नहीं||

- Tejas Gutka

Today.....at the cost of tomorrow.....

India has moved from being a long time under-developed country to a developing one. The journey now advances towards the more sought after status of a developed country. Dreams are big - and so they should be. But the biggest of the dreams are fruitful only if they are backed by a determined action plan. Economically speaking, higher spend on infrastructure, higher conversion of savings into investments, promoting education, creating opportunities and an open economy are the actions that will convert India’s dream of development into a reality.

Unfortunately, a major deterring force called politics stands between India’s dreams and reality. There is no denial that the both, the present and the past governments, have given a fillip to the infrastructure development of the country. However, there are various issues that stand as hindrances when it comes to infrastructure development. Those familiar with the news would know that land acquisition is one of the major hurdles that come in the way of development. Various projects approved by the center are stuck because of opposition from locals (who are ofcourse backed by their MPs/MLAs) either on environmental grounds or for higher compensation. Corruption and bribery further deter the quality of the work and whatever development takes place is for a short period. The bureaucrats, just before and election, will polish the roads and prvide water supply, and once the elections are done water can only be seen in the potholes on the road. Take any major highway/road/lane in Mumbai and you can bet your life that there will be more potholes on any given stretch than its length. Someone put it very aptly by saying “yeh mumbai hain…yahan pe kabhi sadak pe gadde milte hain..to kabhi gadde mein sadak”. The financial capital of our country, the Shanghai of India, has some of the worst roads than any of its metros.

Its not just bad roads that the country has to mend, there is another problem of similar scale about which very little could be done. The problem is that of the turmoil in the global financial markets. One news channel says, when the US sneezes, India falls sick. Very True. Just when Indians started leaving behind the memories of the dot-com busts and the various stock market scams, and we saw a higher conversion of savings into investments, the stock markets the world over have crashed. To make things worse, the real estate markets have also crashed in tandem, thus leaving very little scope for investment for the Indian Households. Add to that the various IPO scams and the sentiments are pushed further into the negative territories.

It is said that the Indian investors are not a very educated lot and driven more by sentiments than by logic. True, but not surprising. On the one hand, vote-seekers propagate the need for free education; on the other hand, the cost of education is rising leaps and bounds. Education, today, stands to be one of the very attractive investment avenues; and its takes no rocket-science in relating the attractiveness of a sector for investments to its profitability. Thus the sector has shed its social image and donned a corporate look. So what so the policy-makers do to overcome the problem of low-education? Well, they reserve seats for the SCs/STs up to higher education and push for such reservation in the corporate sector as well. All in the name of giving opportunities to the socially backward classes. Now, is a socially backward student wanted to study and had the ability to do well, he could have done so in his earlier years of education when he had the same reservations. If, inspite of backing his form school to college, he had failed to be competitive, why would you want to push him further into higher education and work-place. Anyways providing employment to educated youths is a problem and we add to it by pushing the non-performers just because they belong to some under-privileged caste. It is evident that all this is done merely for votes and there are no benevolent intentions here.

Most of the solutions to all problems have been short-term – all for the purpose of garnering votes and winning elections. Bureaucracy, corruption and a laid-back attitude have held the economy from growing as well as opening up. Inferior quality of work, delays and regulatory confusion have only added to the problems of the country. Most long term issues have been handled with a short term solution. We have managed to save our today, but at the cost of our tomorrow.

The problem, however, is not just that of an inefficient system, it is also that of an ignorant population.